April 17, 2010

interior noapte

secventa interior noapte

muzica la radio: robert palmer - johnny & mary: "johnny's always running around/trying to find certainty".
lumina calda, de la cele doua spoturi aprinse si de la lumanarea de pe televizor. lumina suficienta. in dreapta, o pata albastra se pierde pe podea, de la neonul ecologic de la bucataria deschisa.
ceaiul de echinaceea e fierbinte. mirosul straniu de menta s-a raspandit in toata camera, din bucatarie. ca si cum nu s-a facut ceai, ci intreaga incapere este scufundata odata cu plicul de ceai in cana simpla neagra de pe masa. o lampa sta adormita pe masa - ultima lumina din scenografie - mangaie un desen lasat mai mult sau mai putin intentionat in stanga mesei. langa desen tacutele tigari. si aferenta scrumiera pe jumatate plina, prea lenesa pentru a fi curatata.  bricheta de birou le sfideaza - un cub de sticla cu un mecanism de aprindere din inox. pe jumatate consumat gazul. dar flacara inca este perseverenta atunci cand o chemi prin apasarea clapetei negre a mecanismului - un negru de plastic intr-o incercare mediocra de a fi stilat.

phone-photo by me

ea iese din baie. goala. alb-palida, fara nici o alta explicatie medicala sau sentimentala decat tenul laptos si pielea ce incepe totusi sa-si arate varsta, in ciuda insistentelor sau a impachetarilor cu creme si alte produse agricole-apicole mai mult sau mai putin 100% naturale.
el asteapta la masa, la fel de putin intentionat ca si desenul asezat alaturi in stanga, pe de-o parte umbrit de lampa din proximitate, dar si cu accente luminoase ce pot fi cu usurinta studiate sau intiparite intr-o fotografie destinata decorarii unui interior asemeni acestuia. tot gol. cu luciri de portocala pe maini si frunte, fara nici o alta explicatie decat pozitionarea strategica a spoturilor incaperii.

to be continued...someday 

April 15, 2010

take care

painting by me

take care, my love,
for all the glances from me to you in soft dark corners of our bed
for all the times you were afraid and i did laugh 
because nothing could have happened while i was still there
for all the sighs i've heard watching you sleep
for all the betimes moments i coated your feet not to catch cold
for all your expectations story-told to me in perfect midnight silence
for all the sunshines of the sunrise
and all the stars hung hard-by the moon
for all the days to come and hopes of days to be
for all the days past and memories bygone
for my sake at least if that matters
or for the sake of our child in that gentle dreaming time we had
for all the voices in the world just so you can hear me!
take care, my love,
good care of you...

April 14, 2010

BAR

drawing by me


tanjesc dupa cliseul american din cinema-ul anilor '50: dupa barul unde un barbat singur bea o cafea sau un whiskey, o femeie singura bea si ea ceva la doua scaune in dreapta si barmanul e omul perfect cu care sa iti sfarsesti seara-noaptea in cazul unui esec amoros fie el chiar si de o noapte, fie el chiar si incercarea timida catre dreapta, doua scaune distanta.
cum ne-a intrat cliseul asta in retina si in minte, cum iese pana si din suflet cand ajungi intr-un bar, unde te asezi la un scaun, iti iei o cafea sau un whiskey, o femeie bea si ea ceva, la bar doua scaune langa sau la o masa, singura... si toate filmele ce incep astfel sau toate povestile cu o astfel de scenografie pentru intriga sau o anume secventa din cine-stie-ce desfasurare a unor actiuni ce au la baza conflicte amoroase, ies parca din casuta aceea din tine - propriul tau cinema se desfasoara langa tine, in tine. si vrei sa cuprinda tot barul in care te afli. vrei filmul sa iasa de pe celuloid si sa se auda in spate: actiune! tu sa fi in filmul ala sau nici macar sa nu fie film ci sa se dovedeasca asa a fi realitatea. iar de actiunea amoroasa e menita a esua, macar iti ramane barmanul... dar noi, aici, nu avem cultura acestui barman, el nu exista si nu faci decat sa il cauti amagit prin toate barurile sau speluncile din proximitatea-ti geografica.
tanjesc dupa acel bar, dupa acel barman. nu imi ramane decat sa imi iau un trench-coat si o palarie, sa imi ridic gulerul si sa le spun tuturor ca ma numesc Humphrey.

and who knows... maybe one day i'll find the beginning of a beautiful friendship...
until then i just remember there is so much beauty in the world and i enjoy it.

good night

April 13, 2010

elements

i wish to make a drop of water
to bathe in.
sank inside there will be only silence.
maybe this way i'll be able to hear the world
to acknowledge it.
who knows, maybe i'll even hear someone calling me
(in my drop of water i will understand her voice).

i wish to make a breeze of wind
to waft along.
scavenged aside blowing there will be only music.
maybe this way i'll be able to dance the world
to enjoy it.
who knows, maybe i'll even hear someone sing for me
(along with my wind i will understand her words).

i wish to make a grain of earth
to dig myself in.
buried inside there will be only space
to feel it.
who knows, maybe i'll even touch someone's skin
(within my earth i will understand her body).

scared to be burnt no more

i will make a flame of fire
to shove it in my soul.
blazing inside out there will be only life.
this way i'll be able to live
fully.
i know i'll find someone to live with me
(both of us burning will understand).

April 12, 2010

the CHAOS merchant

Hieronymus Bosch - the Garden of the Earthly Delight

all for sale!
all at one price!

i issue chaos to the innocents
to the hungry ones and the naked
to the unborn and the new lights
to the scared ones and the hidden
i issue chaos to anyone who needs anything happening in their lives.

i embrace chaos
so i'm the best salesman to be.
with no regard for what to happen
with no regret for what to be
i issue chaos to the loved ones and for the lonely the same fee.

i issue chaos from my unfathomable soul
with no bottom to be found.
completely full and empty of love and hate at the same time
i give away from my kindness and for my virulence
waiting to see the turn up.

not afraid of chaos
preaching it
memorizing faces
just to find them again in what follows.

you need no ticket
need no prepare for
need no answer to
just be.

be in chaos with me.